And so it continues!

I am now in Anaheim, CA! Over the past five years I have gone from Arkansas to California to North Carolina to New York City to Albany to London, and then all the way back to California again. This nomadic, bohemian way of life is not glamorous nor fulfilling--it's really no surprise that the dominant feelings present in my work throughout this treacherous period of my life have been either terror or despair (often both at once!). And so I now try to set down roots in SoCal, because though the last five years of my life have essentially been a desperate scramble to find purchase as I plummet down into the metaphorical abyss, I did manage to grab hold of some interesting things along the way--things that at least gave me enough insight to finally settle on a strategic method of attacking the problem that is my life

And the grand revelation I arrived at is the exact same one I arrived at five years ago, before this madness all began:
I want to be a filmmaker.

And that's it. There is nothing else I want to do in my life, and I am now working as hard as I can to make that happen. I have already completed one screenplay which I am quite proud of and has been entered in some prestigious contests (fingers crossed I place in the coming months!), and am currently 82% finished with another that is even better. It will be a long, uphill, bitter battle, but I am going to fight it, goddammit, and neither circumstance nor crippling clinical depression will stop me! (Unless, of course, they do--but let us try and be positive for once).

If anything, I've come to appreciate the last five years for how they have shaped me. Certainly they have been brutal and unwelcoming, and at times even nigh unendurable, but through them I have matured in ways I never would have had I not been thrown to the wolves the instant I left my home and family. I'm a better person for it, and my work is better for it as well, which is the most important thing above all.